新鞋，旧鞋

28 Jul ~ （friday)

放工后和老公到 neil road 的天津小吃店 吃 炸酱面，水饺，小笼汤包还有三鲜盒子。叫了一桌菜，却忘了最近我们的胃口都变小了。。 吃剩了一些三鲜盒子。。真是暴殄天物！ 我觉得这里的炸酱面，水饺都还好。。就是小笼汤包逊色了点。三鲜盒子也做的不错就是我们饱的吃不下。。 下次要和朋友一起来才不会再浪费食物了。

过后到唐人街附近的珍珠坊里的奥琪 （OG) 逛了逛。看见了我喜欢的凉鞋, 还有10%折扣就毫不犹豫的买了下来。这款 ELLE 的凉鞋，我一共有四双了。第一双巧克力色的， 穿了1年多，穿坏了就买了第二双黑色的可惜不到两个星期就被我的宝贝狗咬烂了。。还我心痛了好久。。一双要 ＄69 哦！ 过后又买了一双和第一双一样颜色的。也穿了一年多。。 又坏了！通常我的鞋子都比较便宜，可是都只能耐上几个月。可是这双凉鞋却可以耐上一年以上！真是一分钱一分货。 现在这双新的是金色的。。 看看我为什么又买新鞋了。。 脚根和亮片都坏了。。买新鞋不过分吧？全皮凉鞋值得这个价钱吧？再说还有折扣呢！呵呵。。

我们过后过了天桥想到对面和朋友回合。。 在天桥上拍了牛车水的夜景。

和朋友约了去 K 歌。 到了一间叫 k-ster 的 卡啦。 那里的房间好小，顾客又喜欢站在厢房的走廊上抽烟，把整个地方搞得乌烟瘴气。连厢房里都不可幸免。搞得我的鼻炎发作， 直打喷嚏，唱不出好歌。。气死人了！老公也一直打喷嚏，朋友也咳嗽。其实我最受不了别人在我面前抽烟了。。他们想慢性自杀，我可不想陪葬。一直都对抽烟的人有偏见，如果是女人那更糟。。 什么形象都没有了！ 我们就这样泡在那二手烟的厢房里，一直唱到 深夜。。
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29 Jul ~ Sat

因为昨晚睡得太迟。。早上10 点才起身。 吃了早餐过后就带狗狗到楼下散步。回来时把狗狗弄干净后就赖在沙发上看电视。。后来拿起了相机拍了我的新/旧鞋。。 做个记录。狗狗也好奇的趴在地上看我在做什么东东。。 也给它拍了一张！ 帅吧？

老公说他想吃寿司。。 我们就到我们常去的 Thomson Plaza 里的 Edo Sushi 吃。不知怎么的，那天为什么那么多人。。 进停车场的车子排着长长的车龙。。 我们等了半个钟才挤进去。 还好眼明手快，很快就找到了停车位。老公吃了寿司， 终于有心情陪我到乌节路逛街了！

我在乌节路逛了几个小时，很遗憾的，一点收获都没有。 不是喜欢的太贵狠不下手买，就是提不起劲买东西。。 不过也逛了几个小时，甘愿了！ 老公看我没有收获， 建议去吃我喜欢的菜头果（炒萝卜糕）！到了 CHOMＰ CHOMP 吃了我喜欢吃的菜头果 还有云吞面！！ 呵呵。。肥死我！

过后到老公家看看家公。。 他看起来精神好多了。。 不一会儿，老公就送我回家，他自己呢，要去吊丧。听说是同事的母亲去世了。。 我呢到家还是不想做家务，又瘫在电脑前面玩电脑游戏！一直玩到深夜。。
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30 JUL （SUN)

家务总动员！一早起来就洗衣，然后带狗狗去散步。回来后就清理狗狗，然后去晾衣服。然后用洗衣时的肥皂水和 清水洗厕所！弄得满身大汗，好像跑了10 公里！整件衬衫都湿透了。。 所以啊。。 如果不想跑步，在家里洗厕所也是一个不错的运动哦！！

洗了厕所我就坐在沙发上休息一阵，等待老公来陪我去吃午餐。 我门到楼下随便吃了点东西就会来继续做家务。我先吸地，他抹地。 这天气也太热了。。又是湿了一身！

当一切做完后，好好洗个冷水澡。。舒服极了！我们又瘫在沙发上，享受着冷冷的空气，看着电视。后来我建议我们到那个电视节目介绍的虾婆面那去吃晚餐！老公眼睛一亮就跳起来，催我换衣出去了！ 我们到了 Tanjong Katong Road 一带的交叉点咖啡店。 哈哈。。交叉点听起来很熟哦。。嘿嘿。。 认识我的人就知道是怎么一回事！

老公排了35 分钟才买到 两碗怡宝三巴虾婆面还有一碗 红酒药材鸡。

怡宝三巴虾婆， 面的质感很好。。有点意大利+中式的作法。可我觉得虾婆没什么特色。反而红酒药材鸡比较突出！汤头很浓，货真价实，里头还有枸杞子和红枣把汤弄得有点甜甜的感觉。鸡肉嫩嫩的非常好吃。。

值得排35 分钟的队吗? 值得！ 我给怡宝三巴虾婆 8 颗星。也给红酒药材鸡8 颗星。 你们有空儿也要到那里尝尝哦！。 对了这间交叉点咖啡店就在榜儿耶浆饭的旁边哦。榜儿耶浆饭那天的人陇排到了马路上。。场面壮观，有空儿我也想去排一排。。 呵呵！

累死我啦。。

最近也不知怎么的，整个人好累好累。。现在我好想睡觉哦！zzzZzzzzz

这两天也没什么事。。 不就是工作。。吃饭。。睡觉。。无聊。。

两天前，家公出院了。。 他在医院呆了大概六个星期。精神好多了。。就是还需要依赖着呼吸辅助器。我们买了一台机器回家，让他时时刻刻都带着。。怕他呼吸困难。。 出院当天，用了九牛二虎之力，6 个大男人才把 100 多公斤重的他从六楼搬到四楼的住所。他们家那里的电梯只停留在 1， 6，9 楼， 真苦了哪些男人。。 他一出院，我就好像解放了。。 终于可以不用天天去医院探望了。。

怎么身边的人都要出国了？我好羡慕哦。。我也好想去旅行~

我开始想念五光十色的乌节路，好久没逛街了。。不知道我爱的那几间店，有没有新货到。。 我最近好像越来越颓废了。。穿上牛仔裤，T-衫 就出街了。。 好像没有什么心情多做打扮。。没有心情做面膜更没有设么心情减肥！ 这几天都一直吃一些乱七八糟的。。咳~

是工作压力太大？还是患上什么忧郁症了？还是 PMS ? 我就是什么也提不起劲。。遭透了！

今晚要不要去 K 歌呢？好累哦。。 待会儿再伤脑筋吧。。

Moooing cup

Cute moo moo cup from Hubby. He found it when he was clearing out his office drawer for a new job. He said that it was from a christmas gift exchange. The Catty cup on the right which i am currently using is also a gift from him.. Also a present from his other friend. Found the moo moo one much cuter!! haha.. Sorry Catty you got to retire now.

Catty and moo moo are actually from the same series - Gallery from Inhesion. I saw it in metro / robinson a few times. It was a hard decision to give up catty. I broke it's cover but still hang on to it becos of it's smile. I have always known to be sentimental to the things i own. I will bring it home and use it as my personal cup and silly Moo Moo will stay with me in office. Guess what? Purple is my lucky colour!

In 2 weeks time, my composer's society is going to hold it's 12th anniversary. Being the chairperson, I will have to decide if we are going to cater or just go out and buy food. Attendance so far has been rather weak therefore i decided to go for MINI buffet for 10. Surf for caterers the whole morning.. Finally thru my buddy, got to know one which is pretty good and serve a lesser crowd. Will update u guys again if the food is as good as it looks.

Oh Yes! Ate Macdonals Sinful Hotcakes and Sausage Meal today (600+ calories and 38g fats). Had been thinking about it since I woke up. I haven't eat Macdonals breakfast since i sign up the slimming plan. That is about 4 months back? Had to reward myself after working one late night and hustled the morning crowd on the train today.

Have been craving for a retail therapy. Haven't been to orchard road for 1.5 months.. Molding..

"New" Hair Do

22 July~ Laziness 80%

Woke up around 9am and didn't feel like doing anything. However ,
I still brought my dog for a walk. Oh.. who can resist his cuteness
and begging eyes. Tks tks.. Clean him up after that and sat down to
play my computer game. Was playing Children of the Nile for quite
a while now. Interesting game with a fantastic 3d engine. Play the
game until hubby reach my house around 1pm.

Went for lunch downstairs. I haven't really been to the shop
downstairs for sometimes (becos of my father-in-law condition) and
realise that there is a new western food store at the coffeeshop.
Hubby ordered a 1/2 deep fried chicken with fried rice while i eat
my favourite Bah Chor Mee. I complain that he is always eating
DEEP fried chicken and thought he should really keep it down.
That is just so sinful.

Anyway we laze around at home until 4+ went i decide that i should
do something to my limpy hair. Went to the hairdresser and told
him that i wanted to add some volume to the back part of my head.
He suggested that he perm just that portion so i can still retain my
curls at the end. I thought that sounds good. 2 hours later i emerge
with $65 less and messy hair.. Haha.. It is suppose to look messy .
Think i love it. Will return for my colour session as my black hairs is
already 2 inches long. hmm Maybe next week..

It was already 7pm when I emerge and told hubby to eat at the
nearby coffee shop and go visit dad. I had some lousy Sheng Mian
and he ate chicken rice. CHICKEN again! And FaTTENING rice
somemore. HIaz..

Reach Hospital around 8pm and dad is already going to sleep. Was
told to send the 2 boys back home. Mum went to some temple
already. So we said our goodbyes and took the 2 boys back.
Suggested that they Eat dinner at this sambawang duck rice/noodles
place. It is near to the Nee soon Camp. They ordered duck keuy teow
and roast duck rice. no. 3 lament that the portion is too little and too
little duck meat. Hubby went to order extra duck meat and some
siew mai for me . They happily had their dinner and we send them
back later.

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Sunday 23th July.

Went slimming early morning and finish about 12.30pm. Met hubby
with lunch at causeway point. I ate dry hor fun and he order Nasi
lemak with a big Fried Chicken drumstick. YEah DEEP fried again.
I wonder when he would stop. Gave him a lecture about his eating
habits again. Went home quickly as we have lotsa housework to do.
Bath the dog, cleaned his ears , vacumn the floor and hubby mop the
floor. Finish around 4 and laze around until 5 when hubby decides to
go slizzer for dinner.

Went to the slizzer at toa payoh. I didn't really eat much. I had a
minestrone soup, 2 plates of the salad bar and a cup of tea. Lugi again..
Hehe.. Hubby share the main course with me and had a mashroom
soup , 3 plates of the salad bar and tea. It was about 7 when we left.
ent to the hospital again. Was glad that dad is going to be discharge
coming wensday. Then maybe i can have my life back. I mean ALL of
us. Mum's brother and one of her sister was there. The whole family
fussed about him. It was at one time 8 person inside. I stood outside
and chatted with the aunties. Went home around 8.45pm.

Hubby stayed around my house and watch Tv abit before going home.

I play game again until 1am.. Almost finish my quest! Arghhh..

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Today 24th July

Took some photos of the blooming flowers my mum kept outside
the corridoor. Red, purple and Pink begonia...

Beautiful ! I know it.

不肥，不肥

Work was unpleasant today. Was marking my student's assignment and found out that many copy from their friends. The interface was similar and the code is the SAME. Was angry about the fact that they couldnt be borthered to put in any effort. Will discuss with the other lecturer on how to deal with these people.

Anyway.. lets talk about happier stuffs.

Hubby joined "The buffet club" a while back. Don't ask me how to join the club cos i have no idea and i dun know how much you need to pay either. Anyway i was given a "sub" card too. It also comes with one booklet of "Complementary" vouchers for dining at various participating outlets. So today we finally decided that it is time to use our card. We pick out "The square" at the Furama Riverside Hotel. Made a reservation and went. The vouchers gives us a one for one buffet deal at the restuarant.

Reach there around 6.45pm and the place was actually quite empty. We remember the buffet here is not bad as one of my friend ROM was held in this hotel and the we were treated to a reception here in the restuarant. I remember they have my favourite Bread Pudding, but was disappointed that they only have chocolate pudding today. Hiaz.. The chocolate fondue also lack lusture cos they didnt have my favourite strawberry. Today's favourite includes char siew meat, stew duck and pasta with mushroom cream sauce.

Not a very happening place, good food at a reasonable price. However if you are looking for oyster or crayfish or premium sushi, this is not the place to be.

Me and hubby wasn't a good eater nowadays. We couldn't even go beyond 4 rounds. And our plate is always filled 1/2 only. I always lament that i lugi at buffets cos I have a small appetite and i always eat in-expensive food. For a start, I don't eat oyster, or raw sushi . No goose liver either. I like crayfish and lobster however hahaha.. I don't eat shell fish too. I love prawns but it depends on how it is cooked. Hehee..

Went to c father-in-law after that and stay for a while . Went to pick up little brother and send them home first before going back to my house.. Hubby played with sushi for a while and was angry that sushi loves me more hahaha...

Okie nite nite tata..

Gastric again~

Yesterday went for Slimming treatment early in the morning at 10. Finish about 12pm and went to get some skincare essentials such as Neutrogena Alcohol Free toner. Bought a four way nail buffer for nails shinning.

Pop by the Chameleon shop that is just beside watson. Bought a pair of butterfly small clip and a pair bronze hair clip.

Reached school at 1.30pm. Had a brief lunch and lesson starts at 3pm. Headache started after lunch. My gastric is acting again. After taking dinner, it got worst and I cant really think. Just want to go bang some wall. Just hope that lesson finish asap and i can run off home. Hubby reach me early and he wants me to eat some hot porriage before eating panadol. Although i felt like puking after eating pork porriage but felt better after eating the panadol extra.

Went home to knock out after that..

Mangoes!

Pakistan Mangoes arrived at the bazaar in school today.

Was early at the bazaar and waited for the mangoes to arrive. There are a total of 3 types of mangoes of different sizes and taste. I chose the usual Big one. Mango used to be my favourite fruit. Why do I say used to? I love it! But I found out that I kinda developed a allergy to the suger over the years. My sensitive throat will go sore and swollen if i eat a little of it.

Same goes for the durian. I used to be able to eat many seeds. Now I try not to eat at all. Previously my family used to grow durian trees and we will always gather around for a feast during the durian seasons. Oh.. Thoes were the days.. It seems that when you are a kid, you have more immunity.

Anyway I bought a carton to share with my colleague. There are 6 in my carton and my colleague took 2. I gave one to my buddy and the rest for my family.

I am quite tired today and didnt feel like doing anything. ~Yawn... Boring~
Maybe Blasting some loud music might help pick me up a little.. Lalallala

NDP is coming

21 days countdown to Singapore's Birthday. Singapore songs have been playing on the radio recently. I remembered there is one website where you can download singapore songs. Here it is http://www.ndp.org.sg . Under our city of colours, you can find the download section. There you can download singapore song's Mp3 or even Ringtones.. Wonder who will be that crazy..? Haha.. I have always been patriotic. I love many of the singapore songs. I like watching NDP and sing songs with them. Believe me you will beam with pride when you do that.

Share with you my favourite song over the years. One of them is "Home" by Kit Chan I like the chinese version better. The lyrics are very meaningful and it never fails to touch me when I sing it. The other one I like is "Where I belong" or 属于 by Tanya Chua . I also like the chinese version better but the english one is just as nice. Then there is a song called "Shine On Me" by Jai . Its chinese version is sang by Mavis Hee. Recently I also like the song by Stephanie Sun called " We will get there" and "One United People"

Remember Sing Singapore? My school never took part. It was a shame i know. I always wanted to take part. But back in secondary school the school has it's sing Singapore program internally and i remembered our class was the champion! It was a celebration competition that every class has to put up. I remembered ours was a musical telling the story of Singapore using Singapore songs. And i was the lead vocal. Hehehe.. So fun, so memorable and yes.. so sad that it was sec 4 that year. I never had the chance to take part again. But I remember this event every NDP. I remembered we were all dress in Red and White.. Oh.. thoes were the days...

Then.. when I joined Xinyao, I seldom watch NDP. Cos our club's Annual Anniversary falls on National Day. We were normally at chalet or overseas. But sometimes we still watch NDP at the chalet if we are not having activities. National Day has a new meaning to me now. It's the 12th Anniversary this year. And we will be gathering at my friend's condo.

I remember I was 17 when we celebrate our first anniversary. I was a junior member then , later welfare officer, treasurer and now chairperson. We have all come a long way. I have always been glad that I joined the club. Without them, I don't know what will become of me now. They have always been my source of inspiration. I have "almost" achieve my dreams with them. I became a "singer" at the age of 17. Had my first song published in a album when I was 17. Sang in numerous concert . Acted in a play and produced a album when I was 26. They watched me while i grow up from a student, to a professional, to someone's wife. They kept my passion for music going thru the years. Although many have MIA due to personal commitments. I won't blame them cos i understand they have just moved on. For me, I will be clinging on.. I got to keep it going.. Keep the passion alive! Maybe I am just too stubborn to give up.

Anyway I hope this year NDP will also help all of us to relive the Singapore Spirit. Always be Number ONE and be Proud of it. Our Global City, Our Home - 2006 NDP theme.

谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风

最近很喜欢这首歌。 可能我的中文水平不好。。 我想了很久。。
终于明白歌词的含义。

我对歌词的理解如下：

你喜欢看我的眼睛 你说像宇宙的缩影
只要天晴就可以看见星星。。

爱人和朋友的界线只在一线之间。
一句对不起就把爱人变成朋友。

眼里星空 流星(泪)开始坠落
每一滴泪（流星）祈求让你好好走

眼里星空 流星(泪)落入手中
把泪握在手里 向天祈求（ 流星飞过时都会许愿）
希望你能比我先找到幸福/爱你的人

三年的感情 用三秒钟就可结束关系
只剩回忆能回去温习
就算爱没了

谢谢爱你的他 让你有再有另一个星空
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怎样？感动吗？歌词如下：


李圣杰- 眼底的星空
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你好喜欢看我眼睛 你说是宇宙的缩影
只要没有分离 天气晴 能看见星星
我努力爱你宠你调整自已

我是邻居还是伴侣 时间带来残忍结局
在爱情的隔壁住友情 界线太锐利
对不起就一刀 切开所有亲密

眼底星空 流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞 看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我紧紧握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风

用三年去维紧感情 用三秒钟结束关系
剩回忆能回去 能温习 能把你抱紧
就算爱烧成灰尽扬起变乌云

眼底星空 流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌 入黑洞 看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我紧紧握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风

谢谢他给你给爱另一个星空

Chomp Chomp!

Had a super tiring day yesterday. 16-Jul

Went to Slimming at 10am which end around 12pm.

Went lunch with hubby at sake sushi causeway point. Some of the sushi looks really bad. Making sushi is an art. Ask any sushi master and they will agree. Some of the sushi has 1. Badly cooked rice - Rice that are too dry and will fall apart when you pick them up. Rice grain should be round and fat. It must not be too dry or too sticky.. must be just nice.

2. Skill of cutting or using the knife is another art one must master. When you cut maki or fish, they must be of the same thickness . If it is not the same thickness, it will be very ulgy to the presentation of the dish. Knife must also be sharp enough to ensure it can cut thru the sticky rice. I had a hard time choosing the dishes on the conveyer belt. I am sure they are not made by the same chef. Some look really bad while others looks quite nice. The Handroll that i ordered is made by one lousy chef. The handroll literally falls apart when i hold it up. The rice is dry and the seaweed is wet and soft. HIAK.. my bad luck, how come it wasnt made by the good chef.. Will tell myself not to come again.

After lunch, we went to NTUC supermart at the civic center to grab some grocery and went home.

I was bashed after 2 hours of housework. I bath the dog while hubby washes it's sleeping mats and i vacumn the house while he mops it. We sit around and rest for sometime before going to dinner. We decides that it must be CHOMP CHOMP!.. Yeah, I want my chai tow keuy and wanton mee. We reached there around 6 and start to order or favourites. I have my Chai tow keuy and wonton mee and he ordered his favourite hokkien fried noodles and satay. He also order some sting ray which I think was Horrific. Either hubby made a mistake by ordering a BIG bowl of wonton mee or they have lost the magic. It was not as nice as before. I will think thrice about ordering that again. I think the best dishes is still the chai tow kuey and the hokkien fried noodles. Think we drank too much water cos we cant finish all the food and we are super full.

Walk back to the car a distance away and headed for the hospital. Went in to c dad for a while and i found a seat outside the ward. Can u imagine i fell asleep on the seat? I was really tired. Was grateful when it was time to head home. I think hubby is also super tired cos he keep going the wrong way and took us thru many U-turns before sending his mum home and later to my house. We head straight for the bed in the study room and I think we must have concussed for about an Hour before i forced myself to wake up. It was 10.30pm. I went to wash my face and made a cold towel for hubby. Want him to wake up and go home safely. Hope he will not fall asleep in the car. I waited for him to call me when he reach home before I hit the pillow.

Knocked out until morning....

Rome Coffee Anyone?

Friday 14 Jul -

Had a boring day in office. Almost everybody is away. Most of them went to CG Overdrive... Arghh watever... Recently found something interesting on Yahoo. Its called the yahoo widget. Its like a bunch of tools that you can use on your destop. Like weather, clock, picture frame, games, tools that check our HD status, Ipod controller etc.. do check it out at yahoo when you are free.

After work, I went to meet my best friend for dinner. She really looked bad. I mean she look thin, pale and tired. The doctor says she has low blood. So I wanted her to rest more, sleep more, eat more. Man I am worried about her. We catch up over dinner at the outback resturant at millinea walk. Oh Food sux Btw. Then to Shop a little at marina and catch up over a cuppa at tcc along the City link. Ordered my favourite Rome coffee (coffee with rum) and Bread pudding. Yes they have great bread pudding. Fabulous with coffee ice-cream.YUM!

15 July -

Wake up early to do some housework. Put out my mom's laundry and iron all my clothes. Took me around 2 hours to finish everything. Watch Eden discovery channel and monkey world on Animal planet. Always watch these two channels when I have to do my housework. Love animals. I am a conservationist. Against animal trade and killing of wild and endangered animals. I hope all humans will wake up one final day and realise that killing animals upset the food chain and eventually kill the human race.. Hiaz.. okie enough of that talk.

Went to catch the movie , Pirates of the carribean- dead man chest after lunch. Like the show, especially when there are two of my fav eye candy. Yes Olando Bloom and Johnny Depp. :P~ Its worth every cent.. haha.

Went to rekki some walk-in-selection flats after the show. Yes we have been talking about buying a flat for sometime and finally darling decides to do it. We went around senkang estate only to find out that we have already seen some of these flats before. After 2 hours, we only like 2 or 3 flats. Still need to go back and look at the various floor plan. Went to rivervale plaza for dinner. Everything was well until the stupid car park payment thingy. Was stuck at level 4 with the cash card stucked in the payment machine. Hubby was furious . I went down to pull out the card and i thought we can go down to level one where there is another machine. Just as he pulls up near the machine the pte carpark warden went to take down his car number. He went to argue with the auntie whos first intention was to impose a fine for parking at that place. Luckily she decides to forget the fine after our explanation. Hubby was MORE furious. I went to the machine thinking that i can pay with cashcard. In the end the cash card was stuck again and i have to pulled it out again. Went back to car to find some coins and ran back again. All the troubles for a stupid $1 fee~!

Reached the hospital at around 9pm. Glad that the nurse didnt make a din about us visiting dad at such a late hour. Went off about half hour later.

Arghh.. it was a very tiring, but fufilling day. Erm minus all that anger..

很想说有你是幸福的

最近很喜欢李胜杰的一首新歌 - 《很想说》
恰巧也是仙剑奇侠传的片尾曲。。 一边看戏。。 一边听歌
会让你加倍感动。。

有很多时候，大家都习惯把爱藏在心中，不轻易说出口。。
可是不亲口说出爱， 有时会让你永远后悔，你爱的人可能
永远也不知道你爱她/他。 所以，人就应该勇敢的表达自己的爱
以免终身后悔。

歌词如下：
===========================================


You are so beautiful to me

在我眼里你永远最美 连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给 以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
太愚昧 难道 笑容没了 距离有了 快乐也走了
还是 真心死了 彼此不信任了 终于懂了 真的

很想说有你是幸福的 很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了 很想说你真的忘记了 My Love~

笑容没了 距离有了 快乐也走了 还是
真心死了 彼此不信任了 终于懂了 真的

很想说有你是幸福的 很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了 很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的 很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了 很想说你真的忘记了

爱了 就有坚持理由 别说 我会留在路口
不会走 爱你会直到最后

很想说有你是幸福的 很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了 很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的 很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了 很想说我们可不可以 复合

相爱不如相知？

最近，在看一部武侠连续剧。。仙剑奇侠传， 虽然是虚幻的故事，但故事感人，饶人深思。

里面讲述着，人，神，妖的爱， 也说着道。何谓道？ 道可道，非常道。 说是要历经俗事间的七情六欲，经历生离死别 。 当这些都得到的时候，将它放下，就可入道。。 深奥吧？ 可我对道，没兴趣， 我和故事中的莫一夕一样，我只贪恋红尘中，人与人之间的温暖。。也就是 爱。

故事缠绕着人，神，妖的爱情故事。 故事里的妖，比人懂得爱。可能爱对妖来说是奉献，是执著，是就算牺牲自己也要救爱人。。是矢志不渝的。故事里的妖都为爱人牺牲了。。

故事里的神与人相恋，后来为了要肩负起自己神的使命，抛下了儿女私情，为国也牺牲了。。

剧里的人最庸俗， 往往看不清楚是非，善恶。把好妖杀了，把神当妖。对人来说，爱就是拥有吗？
真的可以相爱不如相知吗？对剧里的人来说，爱就是，放开，舍弃。让你爱的人得到幸福。 当你爱的人不爱你，你必需放开。 当你爱的人心里有别人，你必须宽容， 甚至让爱。。 当你爱的人痛苦，你也会痛苦。 当你爱的人开心，你也会开心。。当你爱的人不在身边，你会牵肠挂肚，朝思暮想。 思念是痛苦的。当你爱的人离开了你， 你会生不如死，痛不欲生。 活着的人，留下来的人，往往最痛苦。

看完这套连续剧， 我仿佛对爱有另一种领悟。 爱已经不是占有。 爱是宽容，是宽恕。我要对爱人的缺点宽容，宽恕。想要改变一个人比改变自己还难。 我常常应为老公的缺点而生气， 往往弄得彼此伤心。当我选择宽恕， 忘记，突然间伤心也没有了。。两人开心不是最重要吗？何必活在怨恨之中？何必执著谁对谁错？ 把那些伤心的事都忘掉吧， 以宽容对待每个爱你的人，那样大家都会幸福了。

伤心的人，伤心的歌

老公迟到的习惯还是没有改。。昨晚我下了最后通牒： 要是他不再8 点
之前到我家，我就会自己去上班，这样谁也不碍谁。

今早，我还是照样7 点打电话叫他起床。没想到打了10 次还是没反应。
失望。。我先去梳洗。 7。20 分， 我又打电话。。 还是没反应。。绝望。。
我赶紧打理好一切，吃早餐然后就匆匆出门去。。 那时是7。45 分。。

外面下着绵绵细雨，天色灰暗。。 仿佛嘲笑我的愚笨，我一边走。。
一边想。。。 他为什么天天都这么对我，天天都迟到，天天都这样。。
有没有在乎过我的感受，天天都道歉，可是天天就范。。。 道歉又有
什么意义。。 说声对不起，有用吗？可能对他来说，睡觉比一切都
来得重要吧？他有没有想到我在等他。。有没有想到他每天都害
我上班迟到。 有没有想到，我会因此可能会被炒鱿鱼。。 没有！
他从来没有替我想过，从来没有。 为什么我这样说？ 他去谈生意
的时候， 不见得他会迟到， 可是接送我吗，那就是一些无关紧要的事
他在不在乎我迟到不迟到。。 他才不在乎我伤不伤心，应为他天天还
是让我伤心。

我就这样，一路走，一路想， 一路哭。耳里还听着伤心的情歌，
为什么爱人，每天都要那么痛苦？小雨淋湿了我的脸，淋湿了我心
也淋湿了我的心情。。我很努力的将我的眼泪往里面吞，深怕路人
会发现我的脆弱， 这世界。。故作坚强是没有奖牌可以拿的。。可是
又非得虚伪。。 有几次眼泪决堤，我就假装擦汗。。装模作样的把
眼泪擦干。。

我还是迟到了。。 可我一点都不在乎。。。

Finally got my GUESS BAG- YEAH

Went slimming this morning. Had a terrible time with the cold wrap.
Imagine standing Wet in the aircon! ARGHH. endure..

I remember that metro also carry guess bags. Therefore I pop into Causeway point's Metro and There it was.. the guess bag that i wanted. Initally i asked for a new one but the "new" has some black colour marks. Therefore i chose the one on display cos that is the last piece. What was more suprising was.. It was 10% off! Yeah.. All the waiting is all worth it. Hehehe.. Really made my day.

Chatted with the nutritionist today. She say i was losing weight TOO slowly and ask me to watch what i eat and avoid thoes sweet and salty stuffs.. Hiaz.. Was told to eat some low fat yogurt to replenish my healthy bacteria in my intestines. I tell myself to Endure.. and not to be tempted again. Yesterday ate some sinful food such as Fried bee hoon. Hiaz.. Will go buy yogurt later.

Last night I had a bet with Hubby. Saying that if France win the world cup he will have to treat me to French crusine and If Italy win , i would have to treat italian food.. Arghh. This morning the score was Italy 5, France 3. Hiaz.. ~$$~

I didnt get my GUESS bag

I was talking about a GUESS bag yesterday when i shopped at OG bugis.
I tot that the guess shop at City hall will have the one I wanted but to my dismay, they didn't have the colour that i want too. And they didnt even have the other design. I was told it was out of stock.. long time ago...
Like how do i know when does that series start. I just happen to see it. Anyway was dissappointed that i didnt get my bag. Went to Robinson for a while but didnt liked anything. Replenish my Origins facial wash and head down to subway to try out the new sandwich. Bought some mrs Fields cookies and went home.

What did i do today? Went Slimming, then come back to do my housework. Went to c dad at the hospital at 5+ , stayed at the hospital until 8pm and went off shopping.

Hiaz.. Very tired ..Bored and dissappointed..

Yeah ~ finally got my manicure

Yes, I finally got my manicure and pedicure today. It has been nearly 8 weeks since my last visit.

Its about time. My toe nails are getting too long and some of it has already chipped off. My toe nails has never been very strong therefore it tends to really break off without me knowing it.. hehe.. Then its the forever growing heel skin. Crack heel treatment needed. My Fingernails on the other hand are still quite good these days. Beside growing TOO long, and hurting myself ,it is doing fine. I chose a bright Purple colour for my fingers with extra coat of glitter and a dark chocolate colour for my toe nails. Chose to have STARS for my nail art.. again for the 3rd time. I think i have something about stars.. just look at this blog.. hahah..

okie after my TREAT, i went to the nearby OG to shop alittle. I found a very nice GUESS bag. But to my dismay, they didnt have a new one in the colour that i like, therefore I think i will buy it at the GUESS shop at City hall maybe tomolo. Hiaz.. I am not really in a shopping mood today or else i think i would really buy the other bag but i was really in a Headache.. my stomach gives me a headache again. I couldnt really think of anything except to lie down... Called hubby to come quickly.. fraid i might just faint.

Hubby came 15 min later. We head straight to the hospital. Went to drink some hot hot soup and some hot tea before going to c dad. My head is still spining. Went to buy water, to eat panadol and bought some chocolate to comfort my aching head.

Went to c dad. He look better then yesterday. Bought him some juice and he was quite happy with that.

Then it is dinner time for dad. Mother has to feed him and the rest of us leave the ward . Went outside to talk to some of the aunties. When Dad has finish his dinner, all of us went to celebrate Mum 's Sister birthday.
we are going to have dinner at NO-SignBoard seafood at geylang 23.

Took us some time to finally figure out the place with the crazy traffic. Reach there about 8pm where most of my mom-in-law side is there. Didn't really think that the food is fantastic thou.. Only like the cereal pawns.. The chili crab sux.. the black pepper crab is still fine. Other then that.. all normal. Geylang is really a dangerous place for a ladies to walk about. Tons of Foriegn workers and hony old man ogling at young Chinese Chix. Felt really uncomfortable when they stared at me.

Yupz.. thats just my day today. Finally felt NORMAL again since my father-in-law was admitted to hospital more then 3 weeks ago.

Just hope that he gets well really really soon and the rest of the family can go back to their normal life again.

Y I hate Thursday

Number of Famous Amos chocolate chip cookies = 5;
Bad Day = 1;
Energy Level = 3;


Every Thursday is a super long day for me.
It started at 8.30am when I wake up. Normally I would clean up , do my laundry, then bath and go for my slimming treatment. I will normally finish about 1pm and go to school . Have a fast lunch and teach from 3-6, 7-10. These classes are not just mentally taxing but physically taxing for me. Apart from talking non-stop for 3 hours, sometime i got to endure and brainstorm for my students. This is really not a easy job.

As if my day is not crap enuff, I have to answer crappy emails. Today there is such one that request me to change the entire ISO website becos the fonts are too small for her ageing eyes.
When there is a change is upper management, they always like to change website to SUIT their own taste. So if there is a change in appointment, I would always need to change the same bloody webpage. Then AGAIN. U know I am not a web designer? It was not designed by me wat! And the current design was approved by the old appointment holder. I hate it when it happens... New person, new design.. they just don't care how much work u have to do and decide they have to CHANGE.


Arghh got to drown some famous cookies stolen from my collegues stash to calm down. Don't know why, I just suddenly have cravings for cookieS!Or maybe just any kind of biscuits.. I just ate a pack of julie's cheese crackers last night.

I think i am really not that well, I look seriously tired, my colleague pointed out that my foot is sollen and I don't feel well. I really have no idea what is happening to me. Arghh Just bad thursday! Hubby Haven call me all day. Hiaz..

I don't have a good dinner, some dreadful char siew meat with a few piece of chicken on white rice. I only eat a few mouthful and didn't feel like eating although i am very hungry. Hopefully hubby will come earlier so we can go for some light supper.

Oh yes, I went to slimming today but was told that i gain a KG. I think that is most probably the water retention which is visible from my sollen feet.Hiaz.. What is happening to me..

I haven seen my father-in-law for 2 days now. Feeling kinda guilty now. Hope he is well.
Some of my friends are going to c a friend who has been bed ridden for a few weeks now becos of a unstable pragnancy. They are going tomolo but i cant join them.. hiaz.. nid to be in hospital tomolo. HIaz.... O.. poor poor miserable me.. :{

Y I haven been writing for sometime

I always thought I can keep up with all these, u know always in control of my own time, but sometimes things just doesnt go your way.

On the day that i came back from my bintan trip (18Jun), my father-in-law was admitted to hospital, I went to visit him the following day and actually he was fine. But to our horror, 2 days later the doctor told us that he is in critical danger. You c , the doctors at this particular hospital fail to diagnose what is happening to him until 3 days later.

Okie when he was admitted to hospital, he was having high fever that refuse to subside for a few days. My father-in-law was sick after he came back from thailand, so these doctors check him for dengue, for bird flu.. run more then 20 blood test on him on the first few days without even thinking that it might just be that red patch on his legs. 3 days later, doc told us that the virus in the leg is spreading to the heart and kidney. Therefore a immediate surgery was called to remove the red patch with pus now.

My father-in-law has a history of diabetes and high blood pressure therefore any small surgery will be a huge risk involved, but we have no choice but to take the chance. The surgery is a little over 2 hours. That night we waited till he was wheeled into the ICU. The icu ward doctor says that the operation was considered a sucess and they are monitering him.

For the next few days, the entire family was at the icu, 24 hrs. Taking turns to keep watch outside the ward afraid that anything would go wrong. The doctors put father-in-law on dialysis machine in hope to help him purge out the remaining toxins at a faster rate so that the kidney would not fail. He was on dialysis for 3 days. All these while he was sedated , a dozen tubes stucked onto him for breathing, for waste, for feeding for drips.. etc etc.. It was a scary sight.

The first weekend that he was in the icu, I spend 1/2 of my day in the hospital. And i visit him every night after my work. Although he is not awake, I just got to show my support to the family that is there. After a week, some of the tubes are removed, he is looking better and they decided to wake him up and make him get used to breathing himselves, that took 4 more days before he can breath properly with the help of a oxygen mask. More tubes removed yesterday and he is moved to a more normal ward but still have to keep the oxygen mask on.

I saw him last night, he looks good on the chart, good blood pressure, good oxygen level.. so on.. and he can talk to us .. thru that oxygen mask.

Now all these visits to the hospital everyday is taking a toil on my own health. I was ill for a few days, high fever, lost of voice. I think i am tired. Tired mentally and physically. Tired of not in control of my own time. Yes tired of going to hospital. I was actually angry with myself for not getting control of my time. Made life difficult for my hubby by screaming , shouting or crying or jump at anything slight, like Y he was late, like the stupid traffic, like y my mum bugged me again , my mom hung my laundry the wrong way.. I was just a PEST!

So I really hope.. really that father-in-law could be well really soon and I would be able to get my life going again. And I don't like to be such an ass. I don't feel that well today again.
I hope I am not going to be sick again.. Hiaz...

ASS DAY AT WORK

I just got a bloody ass day at work.

Nothing seems to go my way. Today I got to work late till 10pm,
so normally I went to work after lunch.

Immediately after i sat on my desk, my manager ask me to
go upload a webpage to live server.

There is nothing TOO difficult about that task , just that
As a WEBMASTER I have absolute no access to the bloody
web server. Funnie right? So what now? I got to beg my
collegue or the TO to physically go to the server.. which is
a block away to Log on for me so i can go do my stuff..

So u c, if my collegue or the TO is not around, there is just
no possible bloody way to get the job done. If that is not
fustrating enuff, the files that are running on some script have
some problems and the links cannot be fixed. I was at the
server room , so i picked up a piece of paper and start to
document all the errors, but to my dismay, when i return
to the server, it WAS locked OUT. Damn it. I sms my
collegue again who was SO KIND to come back and key
in his password again for me. And i cannot be so thick
skin to ask him to stand there and wait for me to finish
my work right.. HELL i just dun understand how come
i don't get the rights.

Now about that webpage, It was previous done by so many
students, and I now have to clean up their shit again.
I have absolutely no clue what when wrong with the scripts.
so i decided to ask the previous student. In the end ,
I realise this student did not do the links properly and
i have to manually redo alot of the links. I spend at least 3
hours just cleaning up her shit. In the first place i am
only suppose to change the interface and not the SCRIPT!

#*#&%(*#$&%($* %&$%$#%#*($7
SERIOUSLY FUCK UP at 6pm. I haven finish the job but i have
to get dinner cos i got to tutor from 7-10pm.
No choice, will beg my colleugue again tomolo to log-on for me
or screw the stupid TO to get my access RIGHTS!
I really seriously don't like to BEG anyone to do a stupid log-on for me.

I seriously wanted to strangle someone. My pal has been busy
the whole day and she has this headphones on so i cant complain
to her also. SERIOUSLY MISERABLE.

During my class, students.. after one week of assignment
extention still delay submission of assignment. I am SUPER
PISSED. + my lost of voice, i can only blow fire thru my eyes.
I feel if i can shout, maybe i won't feel that bad. Nmind, i am
just going to fail more of them.

After class, dear hubby is late in picking me up. U don't know
how i hate ppl to be late and it is late in the night and the
campass is super errie somemore. Hiaz.. Y isn't anything
going my way.

When hubby came, I almost wanted to scream at him..
MY last change to lung at someone. Heng he ask me
if i was hungry and i decided to tell him my bad day
instead. We were at this coffee shop nearby and i
found a table and sat down. There is a table of 2 uncles
and a auntie infront of me. I realise they keep looking back
at me or something behind me. Their action is rather
unconfortable and almost wanted to throw that empty
glass at them .. heng that cleaner read my mind and
cleared my table before i did that.

I am just like a vocano waiting to erupt. And here I
am , couldn't sleep no matter how tired i am now
is blogging my anger.

I really dun know if my sickness got anything to do
with my recent anger pangs. I scream and scream and
shouted at hubby yesterday for not arriving at my house in time
to help me with my housework. For that i cried my heart out
for almost 3 hours and sollen eyes for side effect, and today suay again.


Dunno if that got to do with my broken RUBY ring. Without my
ruby ring, i am always very suay. I am definately wear the
other one tomolo so i dun feel that suay.

Yes and i am still sick, nose block and lack of voice and
still very angry with everyone including myself. I really
needed an avenue to vent all my anger. Funny blogging
this did not help me. I just want to scream and scream
until maybe i got no more voice or cry cry until i got
no more tears, then i maybe, just maybe i would be
able to calm down and rest.